On Why I Haven’t Been Blogging…May 14, 2017 / bySam / Categories : Feeds
If you've come here expecting to see a new post about something new I've made, then I'm really sorry to disappoint you. Today's blog post is more about what I haven't been sewing... and why.
I have made a couple of things recently, some Named Clothing Jamie jeans that I was quite pleased with, a Simplicity 1366 top (am I the last person in the world to make this pattern?) and a dress I hacked from a top pattern (I can't remember what it's called and can't be bothered to go and look), but nothing that really floats my boat.
To be honest, none of my clothes - me made or ready to wear - float my boat right now and that is purely because I don't float my own boat right now. I don't want to make (or buy) clothes that fit me now, because I don't like how my body looks and feels at the moment.
I've got lots of plans for things I want to make;
|New Look 6459 Cropped Trousers|
|Closet Case Patterns Kalle shirt - cropped version|
|Tessuti Fabrics Bella dress|
It's no secret that I suffer with anxiety and depression and one of the ways I try to deal (almost always unsuccessfully) with this is to comfort eat. I have never once eaten something to make myself feel better and then actually felt better... I don't know why I continue to feel it will work!
I also snack in the car when I'm bored, and I spend a lot of time in the car! I do a lot of driving for work and sometimes spend up to 7 hours a day behind the wheel (I was going to say driving, but often I'm sat in a queue of traffic, going nowhere). Foods which should only be eaten occasionally as a treat become an everyday indulgence and healthy eating in the form of preparing fresh food with lots of fruit and veg goes out of the window. I eat crap and I'm sure that ends up making me feel more crap than I did already. Consequently, since the beginning of the year I've put on about a stone in weight.
My clothes still fit but most don't feel good and I don't want to make/buy things that do feel more comfortable because I don't want to accept that this is me now. I'm not massively overweight, if I lost the stone I've put on I'd be okay, and if I lost a stone and a half, then that would be wonderful. I know I'm never going to get back the figure I had in my early twenties however much I'd love to. At that stage of my life I was into artistic roller skating and trained 5 times a week... I could eat pretty much what I liked then.
And I'm not of the mindset that if I was thin my life would be perfect. I know that's not true, and I know that way lies madness of a different kind. What I do know is that I don't particularly like myself at the moment and I think that eating more healthily and taking care of myself a bit better would benefit me physically and mentally.
The stupid thing is I know exactly what I need to do, I've got books on healthy eating coming out of my ears, too many probably. And I actually love cooking, I love planning weekly menus and trying new recipes . I just need to click my brain into the right place to actually do something about it.
So starting this week I'm going to try. I've got food in the fridge that needs using up rather than throwing away, but from Wednesday I'm going the healthy route again. I'm not going to go mad (I could never give up chocolate completely) but I'm going to do my best to loose this unwanted extra bit of me.
If you've read this far, thank you. If you're now thinking I'm a complete crackpot then I don't blame you, I think that about myself on pretty much a daily basis. And I haven't written this in the hope of people complimenting me and telling me I don't need to lose weight. I don't particularly care what other people think, I know I need to do it for myself. It's not the answer to all my issues, but it's one less thing to beat myself up about.
As I said, I might take this post down in a few days, but I just needed to get it off my chest. Hopefully I'll be back with some actual sewing and less whinging before too long. I have the perfect fabric for that Kalle shirt in my stash, and for the Bella dress come to think of it! I guess the Bella dress might be a good place to start, it's shape means it should fit whatever happens.
Meanwhile, if anyone has suggestions of things I can sew now that I might be happy with, I'm all ears.
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